What the Lord gives, let it be used for His glory alone

I've explained it a million times, but I realize that words alone can never show you the heartbeat of what I do. Now, I put it in my mind that I will continue to fight for what I truly treasure, not compromising the truths that God has revealed to me and has convicted me off. If to live means to suffer, let me die so that this suffering might be an indication that I am alive in God alone.

2 Timothy 1:8-10


Therefore do not be ashamed of the testimony about our Lord, nor of me his prisoner, but share in suffering for the gospel by the power of God, who saved us and called us to a holy calling, not because of works but because of his own purpose and grace, which he gave us in Christ Jesus before the ages began, and which now has been manifested through the appearing of our Savior Christ Jesus , who abolished death and brought life and immortality to light through the gospel


The likes of Jim Elliot and his friends, the Apostles Paul, John and the rest of them, all have gone before me. Indeed when the question was asked, "What is this story you would lay down your life to tell?", what must have went through the minds of these people? Were they super Christians whom God gave more power or wisdom too? Were they but crazy old fools who were living for old traditions that are not practical for the times we are in? No! They were but fellow human beings - they felt pain, they were insulted and mocked at, they were lonely at times, people couldn't understand why they did what they did, no matter how they tried, somehow there seemed as if their work was fruitless and yet, they laboured on.


It is a joke to call myself a Christian, look at this people and but simply put in my minds that what they did were beyond what is expected of me as a Christian at this day and age.

What does it look like then, to truly live as one who treasures God and loves Him with my heart, mind and will?

Even as I venture off into the world of the media, let my walk speak loud and my words be true, that I do not treasure what everyone else considers as important if is not in relation to loving the LORD with my all. Don't get me wrong, as a student, I have put in my mind that I will treat every assignment as a service to God, not just doing my best, but using every opportunity I have as an experience to grow closer to Him.

Oh how can I show you, that my ministry is not a blind phase loyalty to an organisation, but to the God whom loved me so that He opened my eyes to truly see that there is so much to this life than worrying about which internship I'll get or whether I'll get into a good university.

If I were to die this day, would I come before the Father merely saying, "I have been a good and faithful student, I completed all my assignments on time, I exhausted all my time and energy into producing a work that is pleasing unto Your name, blessed be that I have written an essay that has gotten me a perfect GPA score."

What good is my GPA score if it is not in worship and service to the God who loves me? What good is it, that I gain the whole world, but lose my soul to eternal condemnation?

But still, it is painful that people can live for every other reason and people will applaud you, everything else matters, travelling the world, getting experience, making good contacts, having more money, not having to spend that money, everything else is so much important then coming back to the Father and taking a step closer to Him each new day? IT IS SICK! It just makes me feel nauseous, like I just want to lie on the ground, it's an feeling I cannot even begin to describe. I'm not even trying to hold my tears back, because I am just so disgusted, that my tears demand to be held in, they are screaming not to be let out for such a ridiculous way of living as if you're no better than the ones who treat Jesus like His an optional character where if you are good, well then that's a bonus. Rubbish. I will live for nothing less than for what God is doing with the life He has given me.

Let me stand firm in my conviction that truly, the gospel is sufficient to live life truly as it is meant to be and because of that, I'll continue to live my life for God alone be it whether you look down on me, be it whether you think I'm a fool, be it whether you see me as stubborn, for I serve one master alone and that is God above who has saved me not for condemnation, but for a life where my joy is found in Him alone because of His saving grace, and the faith in which I can now live, alive.