It happens.

Why do we do the things we do, even when we don't want to?

More than often, it seems like no matter how hard we try to, we still end up hurting the ones who mean the most to us.

But something I've come to realise is that, sometimes it's just meant to be... We don't learn to treasure what's important to us, unless we realise how much less of us there'll be when it's gone...

so, it happens.

But more than that, the question is :will you then hold onto what's truly important?

Starting Over

Give me one pure and holy passion,
Give me on magnificent obsession,
Give me one glorious ambition for my life,
To know and follow hard after You.

To know and follow hard after You,
To grow as Your disciple in Your truth,
This world is empty, pale and poor,
Compared to knowing You my Lord.

Lead me on and I will run after You,
Lead me on and I will run after You.

Oh God, where on the path did I begin to lose my step?
Where did I lose sight of the goal that was set before me?

It's scary to think how much has changed in just a matter of months and to know that it was my own doing.

It was my own fault. 

I decided that I knew what was best for my life, that I'd be the king of my lil' own kingdom. But in doing so, I cut down the size of my life to living for myself and I failed to see that all that's left was an empty shell of who I was, who You'd have wanted me to be.

And I'm sorry, God.

The warning signs were clear, and yet I plunged on ignoring all of them. I wanted adventure, excitement and control. But all I did was ruin my life and the lives of the people around me.

I hurt more than myself - the people who loved me, my friends, my family and even You.

But God, I know my mistake. I've seen what it is like to live life apart from You and - it's utterly empty. Forgive me God, bring me back close to You.

May You once again be, my one and only Magnificent Obsession.