No longer I, so I no longer fear

Indeed, it is Christ who lives,

In me,

For me.

When I forget that it is He who gives,

Mercy and grace,

To love Him and Him alone,

Love for all others crumbles into oblivion. 

For on my own, what would be my gain? 

To give, give all of myself,

If not only that Christ be made known and glorified. 

Oh Lord, let it be that I should only want,

With my soul, my life, my all,

To ever only desire to please You

And never to find satisfaction in my own comfort.

Never for one moment may I seek to find a quiet solace for my soul alone,

But that my brothers and sisters and all those around may too,

Come to find their everlasting joy in a life lived with You,

By You,

For You and You alone. 

Space

When time freezes over
And the moment is stuck in replay.

What you want to keep stays lodged
In your mind,
But sometimes really what matters is put aside.

Why do we put ourselves through
The trauma, I'll never know.

Yet still in the midst of the pain,
there lies a quiet solace where
Only reliving it once more may
The memories slowly fade away...

What is one event in your life that has changed you as a person?

Life is truly a beautiful work of art. We will never be able to fully appreciate it until the day it is finally completed. From the vast expanse of the skies, to the depths of the deepest oceans, the glory of a sunset sky, to the intricacy of human life itself. Each day, I can but only stand amazed and marvel at how this giant canvas is slowly unraveling itself before me.

Having said that, it can be a terrifying thought, not knowing what lies ahead. Everyday, we are forced to make decisions, be it big or small that could change the course of our fate. But one thing I believe, is that every breath I take, is a gift not to be taken for granted and that with whatever ability and wisdom I’ve been given, I must put it to use for the benefit of others.

As much as I’d like to just sit here and imagine how perfect the world is, such as the case of the colours of a rainbow, I know that there are people out there who are dying, alone, with no comfort or even hope. Though I know that I can’t do everything to help, but truly as the songwriter Josh Wilson puts it, “I refuse to do nothing.”

This desire, to try and live selflessly for others begin one Sunday morning, as I was listening to the band in church playing a famous hymn called ‘It is Well with My Soul’. At the end of the day, the lyrics of the hymn left a deep tugging in my heart to find out the story behind the song. What I found out shook me to the core.

The story goes that Horatio G. Spafford, a Christian lawyer, was about to venture on a missionary trip to Great Britain. Wanting to give his family of four daughters and his wife a short vacation due to the calamities that had befallen them two years before, he arranged for them to travel together to Europe. However, Horatio was delayed due to an urgent business transaction he had to make. Nevertheless, he sent the rest of his family ahead on the S.S. Ville du Havre, planning to follow in a few days time. Alas, the ship carrying Horatio’s family was struck by another vessel and in a matter of minutes, it was lying at the bottom of the sea. A few days later, Horatio simply received two words from his wife, ‘saved alone’, sealing the fate of his four daughters.

What moved me, was that Horatio still went on his trip and as he passed the exact spot where the ship had sunk, he penned down the words of the song, acknowledging his sorrow but yet, holding on firmly to the hope that he was soon to share with the people in Britain.

This is how the first stanza goes:

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

I wanna be able to stand before God, and hear Him say those words

"With You my child, I'm well pleased."

that's all

that's enough for me

from all the hurt i could've done to people

from all the love I could've stolen from a girl

from all the joys i could've stolen from my friends

He kept me from doing all that

and helped me to love Him and love others

That's enough

The Undeniable Power of Love

I've been contemplating for long, how to share this.
For this is something that has gripped me hard and for long enough a time.
Everytime I think about it, it still rips me apart from the inside and I believe that the only way
to move on, is to accept that it did happen and to recognise that's the first step to coming out a
better man of God, to love Him purely and passionately as well as for my brothers and sisters around me.

Love, we think it all happens in a moment. A flutter of the heart, a weird funny feeling we get in our tummies, sweet melodies that play in our heads all day... And then it begins.

Holding hands, exchanging promises, long hours on the phone and a million more by each other.
How far does it go? How far deep does it go into your heart? Very.
Each and every moment, is magical, each and every touch, is just out of this world.

For one single moment in your life, you suddenly realise you are part of somebody else's and you think to yourself:
"What if this could be and everyday of my life?" "What if?"

And then you begin, what if it doesn't last? What if it ends this very moment? It grips you hard and it
makes you toss and turn all night. You start to think, no, what could I do to make sure it doesn't happen?

Sometimes, when that happens, you realise that the relationship becomes a battle to retain what you love, for yourself.
It is no longer one where you do all things for the other's benefit, selflessly.
It is no longer one where you truly give of all yourself so that another might experience love.
It is no longer one, or maybe, it was never in the first place, one where you grew together in the experience of serving and honouring the Lord joyfully together with all of your lives, encouraging and spurring one another on to loving Him first, and to loving His people together as one.

But then it happens, just as you were coming to terms with the reality of the problem, the gaping hole that would tear any two lives apart in a split second - you enter deeply into another one's soul with one kiss.

You know how they say in movies or in fairytales, the power of a true love's kiss.

I wouldn't say every kiss was out of true love, but I believe the way that God designed a kiss, was truly beyond human control, comprehension and ability.

The design of a kiss.
It joins two lives deeply together in intimacy, a sharing of each other's flesh, a bridge between two souls.
This is a bond that truly is not meant for anything less then a relationship that was built upon God as the center of it, between two that has already become one in marriage.

Because on one hand, it can build you up, for the intertwining of two beings becoming one is a powerful force, especially between two lives that has been groomed and moulded by God for His work. This is when two really is better than one.
Two people who love Christ, who love His people, who wants to make Him known and to continue glorifying Him in the life that He has now given them to live in harmony forever.

On the other, it will tear you apart, for how does one become two again?
One can only become two halves, definitely less than the whole they were once.

That is why, a kiss, a touch, or even a simple word of love, is sacred.
For this is all the beginning of something way beyond man.

So be careful my friends, for you might be entering into realms which you are not prepared for.
May the good Lord continue to guide you into all understand of His truths, that you may live a life as He has intended.

My prayer in this lifetime, for myself, and for any of you who have come to terms with the sovereignty of the Lord is -

That may He keep my heart asleep to love, till the day He pleases. But till that moment, may He take my life, my entire life to doing His will solely by His terms and not mine, to loving all and not just one, equally and unmeasurably, selflessly and compassionately, all who are lost, all who are searching, all who have found, God as their King.

Flowery Language

Like a rose, our lives can seem so fragile...

The first petal - A break up.

The second petal - A fight with your parents.

The third petal - Lost a loved one.

Life begins to lose it's colour,

seems like the end is nearing,

but I've just got to stop and ask the question,

do we stop here or just keep carrying on.

But no, the question needs not be answered, for it's evident to me.

For an unspeakable force sends help from above,

And I find myself moving on, growing stronger day by day.

Tall again I can stand, not by anything that I could have done.

Bright and alive, I'm ready again to meet what the lies ahead!

It's a miracle, one that I just can't understand.

As many questions that are left unanswered, the answers are all out there waiting.

Just a peek out the window, and I can't help but stand amazed -

The wide open sky, 

the white clouds hanging high,

the deep blue ocean,

a baby being born yet another creation.

And there at that moment I know, I just know it

that like a petal, I'm not on my own.

That like stem, I was created for something more than myself,

even though I may not see it at the present time.

Just peering out into the marvel of life's inexplicable phases,

I begin to sense a work that has been spun into action way before time.

The work that was shown to us, on one very Christmas day.

Single-mindedness

So here I am, still halfway through my trip in Melaka and I'm totally amazed that there is actually WiFi here!

It's only day 3 but yet, this place is starting to feel like home.

The friendships I've made, not only with the people I'm working with, but also with the children that I've encountered through the many assembly programs and WOW hour lessons.

I will miss them, I will really miss them. I know I've said it once two years ago during my first trip, but even more so this time. This time, I no longer am satisfied, to be doing half the work, only engaging the children at the first level. I can no longer just teach and be contented, that they've learnt a few more grammar words, or how to express themselves more freely.

I want to be a part of their lives - watching them grow day by day, guiding them through life's ups and downs. But more than that, I want to help them see, that there is so much more to be lived in this life, for we were created for something way beyond ourselves.

 So much more, that it took the Son of God to lay down His very own life on the cross, that for those who truly believe may be able to relate to God.

I want to this, with my life, my entire life.

My soul
My life
My all
Laid down for the sake of truth
For many have not come to see
That God reigns high and lifted up

My heart
My will
My hands
I put them to work for the life I live
For given to me it was from God
To make Him known for eternity.

One life is all I have
One man is all I am
But a fool is he
Who fails to see
God and His Kingdom's reach

Don't waste life

What have I been doing with my life? Wasting it. Totally wasting it.

I've been yet again reminded, that life, is not mine to keep, but it is mine to give, give totally for the sake of Christ being magnified - that people might come to see the AWEsomeness, of God. With that AWE, they can't help, but to turn to Him, to in turn give their lives for this same purpose.

Many of us, me included, think that we deserve to live. Each moment, each decision, everything deserves to go in the direction that we delight, that we will find pleasure in, forgetting that as Christ has given it, He can and will take it away from us in His time.

We can make all the plans we want in life, as simple, as grand as it maybe. But the bottom line is this:
One life t'will soon be past, only what is done for Christ will last.


The children I save from starvation in Africa, the peers I save from failure in examinations, it won't matter and it wouldn't mean a single thing, unless it was done so that they may come to know Christ and to repent.

God, only You can help me to change from my ways, to help me to make much of You all of my days:
Through my pains
Through my joys
Through the worst of times
Through the best of times
Through my life
Through my death

Let the life that You have given me to be lived, in a way that You, in all Your glory and Your awesomeness, be made known to the people around me.

Indeed, it is tiring to bear the burdens of this world, while trying to live a life that is pleasing to my King.

Each day it is a struggle, I can feel the tears just waiting to fall but I know, this is not the way it will end.
For there is an everlasting joy that I look forward to, a joy that will surpass the current pains and sorrows.

One day, these shall all end, and I'll be safe home with my Father above, where there shall be no more tears.
In the mean time, let me press on hard, let me live a life that's pleasing to You My king.

It's good to remember your pass!
But always remember where you are now (:

The Need and the Urgency of the Gospel!

In order to understand why there is a need and furthermore, an urgency for the Gospel to be preached, we must first come to reckon with how serious the effects of sin are and more so, HOW angry God really is with it.

Romans 1:18 says, "For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who by their unrighteousness suppress the truth."


One thing I've come to learn as I continue to study scripture, is that there are no wastage of words. Every single word is key and important to bringing out the extent of the message.

God is not just angry at sinful man, and it is certainly not the kind of anger that we understand (Where you just shoot of a mouth of vulgarities, throw a chair or even physically abuse them).

So exactly how angry is God?

Well, let me just put it this way. God is so angry, that He sent His very own Son to die to overcome death (Not just physical, but a separation from the relationship we were meant to enjoy with Him eternally), the ultimate consequence of sin.

We must understand, that at creation (the very beginning, Genesis), man was created to co-exist in a perfect relationship with God - where He say what what and we do what what! But because man wanted to be God, where we called our own shots and live by our own standards, we went against His warning about eating of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and there death was born!

Even in this small account, we can see how disgusting sin really is.
Because sin is not just a mere act of doing wrong things, or doing bad things that hurt people.
Ultimately, sin is terrible, because it is an outright rebellion to the God who created us, and a disregard to this relationship He intended for us.

And there are very real consequences to sin - we can see it in how we fail to relate rightly with one another, when we abuse creation, when we hurt ourselves. But the ultimate consequence of sin, is to face judgment by God and finally, to be separated from God Himself.

Now at this point of time, I'm sure many of you will either respond two ways. The first way, is to be really terrified about this truth, because there seems to be no way out of this situation and the Lord of the heavens is coming for you.
The second way, is to just close this link right now and just skiddadle off into whatever you've been doing. But you'd be missing the good part, literally.

Yes, God's justice certainly sounds harsh. But...

Because of His great love, while we were still rebels, He sent His Son, Jesus Christ to die on the cross to take upon the punishment that was meant for us! Unlike us, Jesus Christ was completely sinless and he did not deserve to be mocked, insulted, spat at and finally crucified.

However, that was not the end. For God raised Jesus Christ from the dead 3 days later! Jesus had overcome death, and the consequences of which it bought! And the beauty of it all, was that all those who were God's people, could claim that victory because their Lord had bought it for them with the ultimate price! Not only are we no longer destined for condemnation, but for redemption!

But, knowing and embracing this truth for yourself is not enough (whether you are a Christian or not), because if you truly believe in the message of the gospel, it will totally and radically transform the way you are living your life! You no longer live for yourself, your own sinful pleasures and desires for you have a new Master, and that is God Himself!

This is what everyone needs to know! This is the good news of which we preach! It is life in itself!

So do not fear, let us go out and preach this good news, for it is the greatest news anyone will hear in this life time!

For the dead to know and receive life, what greater thing should anyone need?

Every inch of my mind is screaming,
Every beat of my heart is pounding,
I just want to let go and give in.

But that's not what You have done.
You overcame my death, You overcame my iniquities, You overcame my rebellion against You!

Help me oh Father, to love You without measure. That the love that You have placed in me will resound in all my life, may it consume me and overtake my sinfulness! The hurtful thoughts, the displeasures, the inability to love selflessly! Oh may I die then to ever sin!!

Oh please oh please oh please... May I have the patience and love as You have had on me, though I may be weak and poor, I know in You I am rich in an abundance of Your grace and Your mercy and Your love.

Psalms - the cry of man to their God

As I was sitting in the office one day, I noticed a book titled, 'Singing the Songs of the Brokenhearted'. Curious, I picked it up and started to read.

Before I realised, I was captured by what Bill Crowder wrote in His book about the Pslam writers, one of which was king David. 

He's words were deliberate and certain, he did not withhold the pain or anguish that he felt, he let it all out before the God whom he felt had abandoned him. And yet, David seemed to contradict himself. No, his situation had not changed, but the way he looked at his hardships and pains had turned a good 180 degrees. 

What was the change? Well, David remembered the God whom he was crying out too. He knew, that that very God was the one who would save him in His own terms - in His own time and ways. 

When we read the bible, do we take time to recognise and understand who the author truly is and what he writes about? Because what makes them credible, is not simply the beautiful words they write, but it is the truth in all that they pour out.

Psalms would be a good read to study, let us not take for granted the cries of the saints, for there is much value in their words.

The science behind our conscience

Many of us take it for granted, that we still have a conscience that is still sensitive to the sinful tendencies of a sickly condition.
For those who truly trust and obey in Christ, we have an eternal joy, for the records of our debt has been fully cleared once and for all. We can enjoy being able to see the full immensity of our sins.

Sounds crazy. Enjoying the fact that we can see our sins.
It is a beautiful and amazing thing, to be aware of our sinfulness. Because it enables us to be able to respond rightly to it.

So the next question to ask is, why should we need to respond to our sinfulness rightly? Namingly, because we are the creations of a Holy Being. When we respond to our sinfulness rightly - in repentance, we are remembering the relationship that we have with God. We are responding to who God is in our lives and what He has done.

So what has God done to allow us to respond rightly to Him in our sinfulness? He has redeemed our conscience and cleared us of the debts that was recorded against us.

Our conscience is like a record of our sins - past, present and future.
What condemns us, is not the act (Because the act many times can be covered up with a quick-fix solution), but it is the fact that we did whatever we did.

For example, I could have knocked over my friend's laptop , that being the act. But I can easily cover it up by possibly buying a new laptop, I mean why not, and just simply changing everything back to it's original state, he would never notice the difference, problem solved. Wrong.
The fact that I did it, still hasn't changed, no matter what the end result is.

It's the same thing in a relationship. If you start off with the wrong intentions, sinfully, it doesn't matter what the end result is. Yes God can work and He will work in His own way to salvage the situation (even though it may not be in the way you expect it to be), but never for one moment can we live with an attitude - taking for granted that we have our conscience that tells us what is right and wrong.

An our conscience grows proportionately to our knowledge of God in our lives. The more clearly, accurately and personally we know God, the more we will be aware of our sinfulness and hence, being enabled to respond to it.

Let us pray, that our conscience will remain tender, so that we can relate and respond rightly to God in everything that we do and we say and think about.

For the way we live our lives, determines the state of our heart, in our relationship with God.

Suffering is gain

The bible never talks about how to avoid suffering, or how to live a  more comfortable life.

It always talks about how to prepare for suffering, what it is for and why it is actually a good thing. One does not have to look deep into the scriptures (to study and contemplate) to realize that as God's disciples, we will face suffering and it is for our good, for the good of the people around us and ultimately, it glorifies our Master.

Look at the apostles, look at the saints of old, look at the missionaries. Were they super humans? Were they a higher class of christians? Were they any less human then we were? No! They had families, they had struggles, they hungered, they thirst, they felt emo, they felt alone, they felt pain, they felt agony, but through it all, they found joy in having lived a life that simply pleased the One who gave it to them in the first place.

Now I look at my own life and the life of my friends around who call ourselves Christians. I think we should be deeply ashamed of ourselves. Life gets a lil bit rough and we start crying out, "Oh how unfair life can be!"

Why We Can Rejoice in Suffering


This was an article written by the people at desiringgod.org and I think all who call themselves disciples of Christ should read this.


Truly, let us not fear for what makes us inconvenienced, weary or even stretched, for these are marks of a true Christian. No I'm not being masochistic, but there really is true gain in being stretched and suffering for the sake of Christ and His mission for us.


Let us never forget for a moment, that our lives are not our own to live as we please, or to fear to give, for our Redeemer has payed the ultimate price for our sins already. Let us not live as if we are our own kings, let us not live as though there is no need for sacrifice, let us not live as though people don't need the Lord, let us not live at all if we do not treasure our King.

Can do, must do mehs?

Seriously. Yes I do agree, every open door is an opportunity, but it may not be the right way out. I've heard the phrase many times, "If God didn't want you to do that, He would've never opened up that option!"

Really? So why not be a prostitute, or a beggar, or even a murderer? For what it's worth, those options will never be closed. But the questions we have to ask ourselves at the end of the day is, is it the right thing to do?

You don't have to be a Christian in order to know, that we all have choices to make, and the decisions we choose, affect not just how we will live after that, but it is a reflection of how we have already been living.

This verse captured the essence of the previous statement that I just made.

"For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." - Matthew 6:21 (ESV)

You can't hide what is in the innermost of your soul, because it will surely show in the things you do, the decisions you make and even the things you say and think about. That's why it is there.

Many times when we look deeply and intently behind why we make certain decisions, we'll not find something so pretty as what most people see. 

So then how should we live? Is there anything that guides how we should live our lives? Should we even care, pertaining to the previous question?

This is where I make my stand. Yes there is an ultimate and perfect standard of what life is all about.

Contrary to what it seems, it's not about having the perfect job, the perfect wife, being morally upright or even being selfless.

But it is recognising first and foremost, that we are the worst, most notorious, vile beings that possible could exist on the face of the earth. So much so, we are worst than dirt. 

I mean think about it, dirt never thought about dirty thoughts that objectify another person. Dirt never treated someone else like dirt. Dirt certainly never killed anyone. And dirt most probably never hated anyone.

Oh so this is where I share the Christian message right? This is where I tell you that there is a God who condemns people, who strips us of our rights of enjoying life, who sets so many laws and lords over us like a tyrant but still seemingly loves us to the deepest ends of the earth?

Wrong. His love for us goes beyond the furthest star, and even all of creation.

We can talk all day and debate with a million reasons why you would and many other people out there in the world say that He is not so great after all. I mean if He did create EVERYTHING, why would there still be good people dying on the streets, natural disasters killing the innocent, and even helpless people being raped and abused across the nations?

But let me just ask you this question. If God didn't exist, would the selfishness of man cease to exist? Would lust, temptation, pride, sexual immorality, hurt, pain, agony, sorrow, sadness, loss, depression still remain? And the list would go on.

The point here my friend, is not to convince you that I am right. Or that you should become a Christian, I mean so what if you did, that doesn't solve the many problems we see around us.

What I'm letting you see for yourself, is that there is a very real problem, and that we are in need of a very real solution. And that solution, can only be found in the Creator Himself.

Christianity, is not a way of life, it's not a moral code of living and it's not even a religion.

Rather, it is a call, to trust and obey a God, who loves us so, that HE gave His one and only Son to die so that all those who believes in Him, shall not face the eternal consequences of the wrath of an angry God for people who turned against Him, but be able to live a life that pleases Him - the One who created us, loves us and continues to sustain us as His children.

Let me leave you my dear friends, with a song that has touched my heart, and I hope it will bless you this day as well :)

This Life I Live

This life I live is not my own

for my Redeemer paid the price

He took it to be His alone

to be His treasure and His prize

The things of earth I live behind

to live in worship of my King

His is the right to rule my life

mine is the joy to live for Him

I died to sin upon that cross

I'm bound to Jesus in His death

The old is gone and now I must

rely on Him for every breath

With every footstep that I tread

what mysteries He has in store

I cannot know what lies ahead

but know that He has gone before

There is a voice that pierced the grave

a power that rolled the stone away

A sound of life I know I'm saved

the voice of God has called my name

So I will rise and in the air

behold the glory of the king

I will not fear to meet Him there

I know my life is hid with Him.

Peace be with you this day :)

How can I be a better speaker? How can I connect with people better? How can I touch people with the words of a song?

It's simple, really. Love God and Love man.

One life lived that sings a song that is pleasing to my King.

Matt 6:21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Indeed, what is my true treasure?

When I carefully look back at the couple of weeks that passed by, I see so many other things that take precedence in my life... The first thing I find myself doing in the morning, is opening the computer to check out what people have been doing or just to see what notifications there are. What does it say about what I find important in my life?

On one hand, I'm telling people constantly, to reconsider what they truly value in life - my classmates, the people in church and so on. But in my own life, I've not come to reconcile with this truth. When I look deep into my heart, I can only ask myself one question - where is God?

It is easy to hide what's on the inside by making everything on the outside look all nice and good. But God knows, He knows my heart, He knows my inner most thoughts, He knows everything that goes on and He knows everything that will soon come to pass. I can and must not allow myself to feel affirmed just by those around me; indeed there is much value in your leaders telling you areas that you have grown, but only my Lord truly knows what is happening and I am not blind to it. John 9:41 Jesus said to them, "If you were blind, you would have no guilt, but now that you say, 'We see,' your guilt remains."


Oh what a wretched man I am... Appearing to be one who truly treasures God, but deep inside, living a life only working to gratify my own sinful desires.

All the more Father, I thank You for the cross, the mighty cross. That when You died and rose again, not only did you take the punishment of Your wrath, but You also gave me Your righteousness that I may truly live as a child of God. For every small and big thing I do well, it is because of Your work in my life. I don't have to try to live differently, for just living faithfully with whatever I know and You have taught me, I am already different.

Now my prayer Lord, is to let my walk speak loud and these words of mine be true, that I will treasure You with my heart, might, mind and soul.

My life is in You Lord,
My strength is in You Lord,
My hope is in You Lord,
in You,
It's in You,
It's in You...

For You are the centre of my life,
Lord I respond with all I am,
You placed in me the song of
heaven's melody,
Your majesty,
I surrender all...

So let it stay true,
and let it endure,
That You will be glorified
worshipped and adored...

For You so loved the world,
that You gave Your only Son,
Love amazing so divine,
We will love You in return,
For this life that You give,
For this death that You have died,
Love amazing so divine,
We will love You in reply Lord..

Love demands my soul, my life, my all.

John 1:1-5

The Word is referring to God Himself and Jesus Christ
-> "All things were made through him... that was made" CREATOR
-> "In him was life, and the life was the light of man" Christ, Light of the world, man's Salvation

Jesus Christ, is indeed our Lord our God. With the same power and authority of which He created existence, resurrected from the dead and even healed the sick and gave sight to the blind, He gave us LIFE (1 Peter 1:3). An eternal life that for all the days of our life, we will truly know the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent. (John 17:3)

God's word, has that same power and authority over all the earth - every creature, every organism, every being.

What other way can I love another, without speaking, living and breathing of His word? (2 Timothy 3:16)

Let my foolish heart and selfish mind fully embrace You, God. That I will not be deterred by blind-led emotions, but let joy abound ever so because of Your Grace in my life, that has helped to to find and have life in Your name. May Your servant ever only find peace, faith, hope, freedom and love in the one true King who first showed us the way in the darkness.

Center of my Life

Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole (It is but only one life to live, let what I say resound in all that I do and live)
With my eyes on you (It's not about my bravery, or a choice, or an act of selflessness, it's about who You are)
Lord I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone (It demands my soul, my life, my all)
Letting go of me, (All my fears, all my prejudice, all my doubts, all my faithlessness) 
Holding onto You

Freedom comes
When I call You Lord
You are Lord my God

You are the centre of it all,
The universe declares in awe
Your majesty
I surrender all
I make you
The centre of my life
Lord, I respond with all I am
you placed in me the song
Of heavens melody
Your Majesty
I live to sing Your song

I have found Your peace (The work of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ)
It replaces any fear
You have done it all
I can trust in you
So I'm stepping out
From the comfort zone
Letting go of me
Holding onto you

Let this song be a prayer, for all who are walking in the light of the one true King.

Amen

Last night while I was asleep, I had a rather interesting encounter...

I had a dream that I was living with this elderly man, who was at the prime of his life. He taught me many things, and we really loved each other - laughing, crying, sharing our joys and pains. One day while we were at a concert, I decided that I wanted to write a note to him, to share the joy of the good news with him. So after the concert was done, I walked up to him. But when I looked into his eyes, something was amiss. I dropped the note and I ran to kneel beside him. His breathing was heavy, his eyes were tired, he dropped forward onto me. Catching him, I screamed for help - but no sound came out. I yelled, pleaded and cried desperately, but no one could hear or rather - no one would listen. I had to leave him on that chair, I told him it was only going to be for awhile, I was going to get help, but he didn't respond. I dashed down the flight of stairs, past people who were oblivious that a life was slowly diminishing... I ran into the general office and yelled again, and now sound came out. The staff at the desk looked confused. I mouthed out the words 'first-aid kit' and just keep pointing wildly in the air. Finally she got it, and she reluctantly passed it to me. I snatched it and I dashed back up. Running back to the hall, I searched everywhere for him, but he was nowhere to be found. He was gone. All that was left, was the note I had written and the memories we had, even a few moments before his life had ended. Before the concert had even begun, the simple hug, the joyful look in his eyes and that smile of love and approval. They were all gone...

When I woke up, I begin to ponder... What could all this mean?
I just thought back about what I read in another brother's blog.

We spend all our lives, with our loved ones - sharing all our pains, joys, sorrows with each other. We think that we have all the time in the world with each other, but we never realised, that time was never in our hands. We were never the makers of our own destiny. One moment, we could be happy and alive but the next, our lives could be found hanging on a thread... If we truly loved the people around us, why on earth we would not share with them the greatest news - the gospel. Where is our sense of urgency, for the people around us? Do we just care to meet their daily needs - to affirm that their clothes look good on them, that we should try food from this japanese stall, to go to universal studios together but yet at no point of time, ever tell them about the wonderful news of what God's salvation plan for all those who believe in Him?

I think we should rethink, what we truly value about the people around us. Do we truly love them, or are we just simply enjoying the comforts of having them around without ever thinking for a moment, that without the gospel, they are already dead?

For the very fact that we can have a single breath, let us rejoice!

Many times, I struggle to spend even a few moments with God, just reading His word. Other times, I find it hard to live as God would have me - pleasing myself and placing myself as king often, leaving myself bitter and torn, but yet I still continue to do so each time.

You know the deepest desires of my heart Lord, let my prayer be of dependance and trust, that the problems and the sinful desires of the heart will continue to pierce and sting, but Your Spirit will continue to bring me closer to You, so that I may truly find joy and freedom in living a life free from enslavement to rebelling and living against You.


Luke 1:5-25


1. Our lives have already been predetermined from before we even existed.
2. There is no such thing as a random occurrence, all things happen according to how God has intended for it too.

Implication:

1. Recognise that ALL things happen according to how they should - the question is not why does it happen, or how could such a thing have happened but rather, how should I respond knowing, that my King's plan is being slowly unravelled to His people?

2. My life must reflect that there is a King - Love for Him in a relationship, obedience to His word and a life that points other people to Him, a trumpet that sounds in the desert.

3. I am a child of God. What or rather, who do I truly treasure?

Application:

1. I should not fear to do what I know is right - be it correcting another person, even if it causes tension and discomfort ; but having said that, be ready to walk with them, endure their bitterness towards  me but still , love them as the King would have me.

2. This is my Father's world and I am His child. In my tiredness or sinful desires, I must love people the way Christ would - if that even means turning people away to rest when I know that what I say will not be pleasing to my King but rather, gratifying my own sinfulness.