I've been contemplating for long, how to share this.
For this is something that has gripped me hard and for long enough a time.
Everytime I think about it, it still rips me apart from the inside and I believe that the only way
to move on, is to accept that it did happen and to recognise that's the first step to coming out a
better man of God, to love Him purely and passionately as well as for my brothers and sisters around me.
Love, we think it all happens in a moment. A flutter of the heart, a weird funny feeling we get in our tummies, sweet melodies that play in our heads all day... And then it begins.
Holding hands, exchanging promises, long hours on the phone and a million more by each other.
How far does it go? How far deep does it go into your heart? Very.
Each and every moment, is magical, each and every touch, is just out of this world.
For one single moment in your life, you suddenly realise you are part of somebody else's and you think to yourself:
"What if this could be and everyday of my life?" "What if?"
And then you begin, what if it doesn't last? What if it ends this very moment? It grips you hard and it
makes you toss and turn all night. You start to think, no, what could I do to make sure it doesn't happen?
Sometimes, when that happens, you realise that the relationship becomes a battle to retain what you love, for yourself.
It is no longer one where you do all things for the other's benefit, selflessly.
It is no longer one where you truly give of all yourself so that another might experience love.
It is no longer one, or maybe, it was never in the first place, one where you grew together in the experience of serving and honouring the Lord joyfully together with all of your lives, encouraging and spurring one another on to loving Him first, and to loving His people together as one.
But then it happens, just as you were coming to terms with the reality of the problem, the gaping hole that would tear any two lives apart in a split second - you enter deeply into another one's soul with one kiss.
You know how they say in movies or in fairytales, the power of a true love's kiss.
I wouldn't say every kiss was out of true love, but I believe the way that God designed a kiss, was truly beyond human control, comprehension and ability.
The design of a kiss.
It joins two lives deeply together in intimacy, a sharing of each other's flesh, a bridge between two souls.
This is a bond that truly is not meant for anything less then a relationship that was built upon God as the center of it, between two that has already become one in marriage.
Because on one hand, it can build you up, for the intertwining of two beings becoming one is a powerful force, especially between two lives that has been groomed and moulded by God for His work. This is when two really is better than one.
Two people who love Christ, who love His people, who wants to make Him known and to continue glorifying Him in the life that He has now given them to live in harmony forever.
On the other, it will tear you apart, for how does one become two again?
One can only become two halves, definitely less than the whole they were once.
That is why, a kiss, a touch, or even a simple word of love, is sacred.
For this is all the beginning of something way beyond man.
So be careful my friends, for you might be entering into realms which you are not prepared for.
May the good Lord continue to guide you into all understand of His truths, that you may live a life as He has intended.
My prayer in this lifetime, for myself, and for any of you who have come to terms with the sovereignty of the Lord is -
That may He keep my heart asleep to love, till the day He pleases. But till that moment, may He take my life, my entire life to doing His will solely by His terms and not mine, to loving all and not just one, equally and unmeasurably, selflessly and compassionately, all who are lost, all who are searching, all who have found, God as their King.
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